Sunday, November 27, 2011

Busting up and reaching for the light


Reaching for the light has become this little flowers goal. In just a week more green and growth. It was not an easy process, growing in any form hurts. If a person could hear the sounds a flower makes as she is reaching for the light, we may shed a few tears in the process ourselves. My own growth has been challenging too. Last time I spoke about the delima, the new job, and the leap of faith. What I did not mention was the pain it took to get there. I find it very important to stay focused and strong. I have habit of not letting anyone in except my own personal Light. Jesus is always right there. He hears me in the quiet of the night, and when the pain becomes too hard He is the one who lifts me and understands me.
When you look at this little flower it is hard to believe she was only a bulb a couple of weeks ago, fresh out of the box, and ready for a new journey. She knew that she had a purpose,it was to grow and become all she could, but the journey does not mean it will be easy. My own journey is similar to that of the bulb. I have a new position at Church and that journey has been an interesting one too. I found myself asking Heavenly Father why I was asked to be in this position, and I received the answer when I went to the "Time Out For Women". There I learned that it is my strengths that are valuable. I also know that I have growth yet to be discovered and so does the flower.
When you look at the flower she is green, and getting strong. When you look at me, you will see a lady trying to learn about herself in the new position at Church and to become efficient at the new job. The journey for both of us is far from over, but the only thing we can do is bust up and reach for the light.

Step 2 to Growth







As you can see the last blog was a few weeks ago, and then it took some bumps to get this next one up. The process has begun. Just as with the preparation of the soil to help the flower to grow, my own life has needed some preparation. I was in a recent delima. I have been attending school, and working part time , but....my finances had dramatically changed. Now to the soil, it took some soaking...alot of soaking to get it where it was ready for the planting of the bulb. Once the soil was ready I took a spoon and began to toss the soil. My finances were in that same fix, soaking in water but ready to be turned. I had been applying anywhere. I had been offered another job, Church Distribution/Deseret Books, to coincide with my hours at the Scout Shop, but this meant some juggling as a Mom.
Soil is now ready for the bulb. Now I am going to plant the bulb to just the right spot so that it is not too deep or too exposed. well, I started my job, but with great reserve. I had applied at a local credit union, even went on an interview, but I did not hear back before I had accepted the job at Church Distribution/Deseret Books. The bulb is now in the soil...shock as it is going from dry to very moist...probably screaming to be removed...put back where it was comfortable. I was also in the same situation...wishing I was that little girl that could run home to my parents to comfort me while I found the job to provide and be certain I would be near love...always knowing my Heavenly Father was right beside me.
The soil is being placed carefully arouund the bulb for best coverage. Now, all that is exposed is the top of the bulb. My top was being exposed...no time to be a Mom with my new work schedule. I had to have faith...like that of the seed, knowing full well that I would be placed in the right spot. Sometimes faith means more than just walking it, but jumping into it. So I decided the best thing for my family was not less time, more money, but not enough to cover the bills...so, I quit that new job trusting that something better will come along. It did...Deseret First Credit Union...within hours of my total leap of faith. The seed has been planted...now what...return for more